boys

most of the girls in my school are boy-crazy.
i've never been that way. i remember listening to my friends talk about boys at sleepovers

who do you like?
corbin bleu, he's so hot!
well, i like this guy on the baseball team....
who do you like?
nobody.
come on, you can tell us.
i really don't like anyone.

and i didn't until last year. i had watched one episode of "american idol" but i swim at night so i missed most of them. it was "british invasion night" and i had off swimming or wasn't there for some reason. i was watching it and all of a sudden there was this guy.
i didn't know his name and i was just watching him until my dad said something about how i thought he was cute, just meant as a joke
... and all of a sudden, i did. the guy, i found out, was Sanjaya Malakar. i really, really, really liked him. i never told my family, just some of my friends. i had a crush on him until November of last year. i would daydream- and sometimes dream at night- about him. i loved his attitude and his voice and his pretty hair.
after that i only liked two people, one of which a girl in my class found out about and told everyone about.
there were a lot of rumors about me going around then.