Not so alone.

Well, in my last post I didn't say that someone invited me to sleep over.

So, not so alone.

Thank you. I love my choir friends. Why can't they go to my school?

I'll probably scare/wierd out this girl's friends. I don't even have an outfit that would totally fit in with normalness for my age. Haha, I didn't even realize how differently I dress until I tried to find an outfit that would make me look preppy/normal. Although I suppose if I wear that pink Aero shirt I got as an experiment with my greenish shorts, it might look normal.

I don't care though.

Okay.

Yeah. I haven't been here since I was gone. Not in town.

God. I'm so alone.

New stuff.

First of all, there's the trailer for Harry Potter 6:

The actor for the young Tom Riddle looked nothing like I thought he should, but I liked his voice. The younger Dumbledore also didn't look the way I wanted, but I'm not casting, they are.

Then...

NEW SANJAYA MUSIC!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been waiting for this since he was voted off of American Idol. The songs are amazing.

First, there's "Quintessential Lullaby" .East Indian style music fused with techno make up the backing track and fit perfectly with Sanjaya's voice. The lyrics are intelligent and thoughtful, unlike a lot of music now. Best of all, "Quintessential Lullaby" is written by Sanjaya and his sister Shyamali. This song is my favorite of the two for sure.

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Then, there's "You Will Never (Find A Guy Like Me)". It's a pop song that, at the beginning, sounds like it would fit right in with maybe Metro Station's "Shake It". But a few seconds later, the backing track starts sounding more mature and sort of jazzy or Latin. With the addition of Sanjaya's smooth, gentle voice and his and his sister's lyrics, it's transformed into- yes, a good single. But also, an amazing song for any album, that wouldn't have to be a single to get popular- one of those songs that fans would rave about and try to get made into a radio single.

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YAY HAPPY HAPPY

So, I can't go to Warped Tour, but I found out that Anberlin is going on a headlining US tour this fall with Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Straylight Run, and There For Tomorrow.

I was incredibly happy to hear this. This tour means a bunch of things:

1. I can probably go- even if it's a day my parents work I'm guessing I can get a ride.
2. Anberlin plays longer than at Warped.
3. Anberlin might play (*Fin).
4. I'll probably like the other bands which means NEW MUSIC :)
5. I can buy the awesome sweatshirt I saw on their site.

So, I'm very very super excited now and I definitely don't care as much about missing Warped. Here are some links if anyone wants to see:

http://www.stereotruth.net/2008/07/anberlin-announces-new-surrender-tour/

http://www.jesusfreakhideout.com/news/2008/07/23.Anberlin%20Announce%20Fall%20Tour%20In%20Support%20Of%20New%20Surrender.asp

http://www.punkbands.com/news/14992/

My own lyrics.

This is what comes of listening to almost entirely Death Cab and Anberlin for several weeks:

We've tried and tried
To get through to your elemental mind
To make you ask what's beyond
The obvious and the oblivious
And make you see what really is

But still nothing takes you
Nothing makes you feel
Nothing makes you wonder
And I'm sorry...

Because there's so much more than just them or you
And the way that he walks down the hallway
And the way your shirt is never pink

But still nothing takes you
Nothing makes you feel
Nothing makes you wonder
And i'm sorry

And i just hope the music makes you..
Think.

These are my own lyrics. I don't know if they're finished yet, and I know they're probably crap.

But I wanted to share this with you guys, especially anyone from Daze if you're reading this. I don't know if you know who I am yet, but maybe someday you will.

A lot of stuff

Burn it down till the embers smoke on the ground
And start new when your heart is an empty room
With walls of the deepest blue

Home's face: how it ages when you're away
Spring blooms and you find the love that's true
But you don't know what now to do
Cause the chase is all you know
And she stopped running months ago

And all you see
Is where else you could be when you're at home
Out on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone

The flames and smoke climbed out of every window
And disappeared with everything that you held dear
And you shed not a single tear for the things that you didn't need
'Cause you knew you were finally free

'Cause all you see is where else you could be when you're at home
Out on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone

And all you see is where else you could be when you're at home
There on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone

- Death Cab for Cutie, "Your Heart Is An Empty Room"

I love this song. When I listen to it, it seems like Ben Gibbard wrote it just for me. It's pretty much what I think- I don't have a lot of friends and a lot of times I do wish I could be somewhere else, and with someone, whether it be a boyfriend or just my best friend who moved away. I know this makes me sound emo, and I'm sorry, but I'm also pretty sure no one reads this so it's OK.
There are a lot of songs that mean a lot to me, some just because they're beautiful, but some because they have meaning for me. This is one of the ones with meaning.
I've been listening to it all the time lately. I want to tell people about it and make Rachel listen to it, but she'd just make fun of it. She likes some of the same music as me, but music is different for her. It doesn't seem to mean much to her, it's just what she listens to if she doesn't happen to be doing something else. Also, she likes Paramore, but that's a different issue.

I had an amazing time at swim lessons today. It was cold out and no one wanted to go in the water but me, so we tried to get each other in the water. One of the guy JUs (junior instructor) was being a wuss so one of us pushed him in and I put his flip-flops in the water. I made sure they weren't leather or anything first though. :P Actually, I was doing a favor for him because the shoes will look better and smell better after the chlorine. Ha.

kids

i helped out with lessons at the pool today.
it was fun. it's really pretty because even though it's a public pool with slides and fountainy things and stuff, there are trees all around it and it's built on a hill. i love sitting on top of the high dive, which you're allowed to do before lessons start, because if you fall off it what's the big deal? you're supposed to fall/jump/dive off it. you can see everything from it. i don't really like going off it because i don't enjoy falling for long distances, and this is a really long distance, but sitting on it is awesome.
i love working with the little kids, too. even if they've never seen you before, they trust you and want you to catch them when they jump in the deep end. i wish everyone would be like that.